I have wanted to do a blog and video blog for a while now and so far it’s been a struggle to do it. A lot has happened since starting this blog site. I’m still in the second most difficult phase of my life that has to happen to be where I want to be. Also it’s the last piece of the story of pushing through fear and all the cycles caused by abuse that have seemed to be endless for life and that I would die with tears in my eyes. That will not happen I will keep going even though the cycles that never lead to peace are always pushing me to stay in a hamster wheel that keeps spinning leading to nowhere. Not using the same tools or actions that never lead to success only failures has been my greatest challenge. I’ve been showing myself grace everyday till I forgive myself over time for all I’ve wasted of time and money while on the hamster wheel. It’s helping slowly but even it getting better slowly is a lot better than the cycles of shame and torment I’ve experienced. This blog will be more than it is soon. Please check back to see if it is worth reading again. Again more and better is coming.